It's Finally Over...

It's finally over and we're finally done. High school is over now, but it still hasn't hit me yet.

... though I know that for some, I'll never see again until maybe 10 years from now. To be able to go through 4 years with people has been a fun time in my life, and something I'll never forget.

Though really, my family has always been behind me in whatever I ended up choosing to do and where to go... and I thank them for that. I'm perhaps the youngest one in my generation, but that just meant I could ask them for whatever help I needed and they were always there to help me. Amazingly enough, my family is a little too close for my liking (we're always doing something that most families would steer away from)... for all those that think I'm weird and crazy... I should warn you that in my family I'm the quiet and rational one.

Then, of course, there are those who put up with me on a daily basis, my friends that I've gone through everything with... ironically enough, they can be divided into different "specific but yet vague" groups:

"The Table" - Really now, it didn't matter where we ended up sitting, whether or not it was at the table in the SAC, in the hallway outside of Ms. Young's room, or in the little corner playing Mario Kart DS (and the daily "WTF?! CHEATER!!!" yells that insued), we did it all. There will always be those jokes in which I'll never forget, and the randomness that we had will always only be unique to us... Somehow, 10 years from now, at the 1st reunion. I think we'll find ourselves not very far from the past. We'll still be sitting at a specific table, joking about tossing around that cinnabon or how David / Otis is allergic to a certain act vital to his future... ahaha.

"Engineers" - Face it, we were pretty friggen unique. While everybody else thought we were "mean" to each other... it was really just how we were around each other. Well hey, what can they say about it? We survived Gauthier together, went against that long-term sub and lived, and spent the year with Whitney making a car we'll never complete. Our jokes were our own, and everything from your mom to Robert's "summer stagehand job" was fair game in our classroom. The tourneyments we had we random, though Robert was at the butt of every joke.

"The Underclass" - There is nothing I can actually say to any one of you individually, so instead I'll say it to you all at once. You all had your own little names... my partner-in-crime, the one who's "sense of direction" is completely useless, the pointless one... and all had been the subject of my constant head patting... for reasons still unknown. Don't worry about it, I'll still come and visit, but you're on your own now... I can't amuse you all as much anymore. Good Luck. ^^-b

"Spring Valley" - You were the group that reminded me of all the old days, partly because most of you were from the old days... ahaha. My home away from home, there are some things that just wouldn't happen with anybody else... I mean, how many people can say "Their cup tastes good?" or "DON'T GET ME GREEN, YOU DON'T LIKE ME WHEN I'M GREEN!"... Most of us are heading to the same place, and hopefully we'll be able to continue the times. ^^-b

From there, there are certain people that have kept me potentially sane through the years, but I'll save that for another day... for now, enjoy the time to know that "Hey, you're free now... it's onward to actual life."

... and enjoy these... they describe some of the moments of my life... in a more twisted fashion of course. [link] [link] [link] [link] [link] [link]... and of course any of the old ones I posted on here would well describe my life too.

Recapping Senior Week

Well, I'm up at whatever time it is in the morning, having just gotten back from Ken's birthday party (once again, happy birthday). It's kind of weird since we used to hate each other (well, I dunno why, guess that's just how we bond or something... >.>), but that's all in the past now.

Anyway, figure it'd be time to update this and not end on some dreary note or anything.

Senior Week
Monday - College Shirt Day
Tuesday - Superhero Day
Wednesday - Senioritis Day (Breakfast & Powderpuff Game)
Thursday - Senior Citizen Day (Yearbook Signing)
Friday - Senior Royalty Day (Senior BBQ & Guys Flag Football Game)

So yeah, it was senior week this week, and I have to say that our school spirit is insanely hilarious. College Shirt day was a total bust for me since I didn't have my shirt (Yay for going to the University of Nobody's Leaving Vegas!), though I was tempted to wear my Stanford shirt since I did get wait-listed there; same thing for superhero day. Senioritis day I thought I was dressed appropriately well, since I wear that to sleep and what not. Wednesday was where all the fun started. Senior Breakfast was perhaps mayhem, as after the first breakfast portion (it wasn't exactly the worse thing in the world really, in fact it was decent) there was a bunch of randomness involving throwing of beach balls and, of course, making photos of random flying through air... I'm like an expert at these things (considering my 7.2 megapixel Sony Cybershot only does so much) and managed to get some great shots. After school it was the Powderpuff game, including some ridiculous moments of watching guys become drag queens... We won, of course... 13-7. Thursday became yearbook signing, and I avoided Steve for obvious reasons (long story involving last year's yearbook mess up and me tormenting his life afterwards). Lots of signing since this'll be my last high school yearbook, and I've made my signature's memorable (the infamous "^^-b" strikes). Friday was Senior BBQ, where the Velcro Wall and Sumo costumes were made available, and some intriguing things began to happen... I mean, there was this water bucket thing and I swear, there was the intrigue of spread pneumonia (it was cold and we're playing with water... hm.) Afterwards the "Big Game" started... and after the half the seniors started to shine. Before halftime it was 6-0, and after it ended up being 31-0 (something along those lines). We also "Vaselined" Eric Lein's car... which, perhaps, made my day (I heard that his mom and sister were laughing when they saw this).

... yeah, that perhaps eclipsed everything... Vaseline on Eric's car. Oh man, it was pretty epic, I have to say.

Everything Else
Ok, I promise! This week, EVERYTHING's going to be sent... Lots of postage, but it's alright. ^^-b

Went to Ken's party, like I said, and just came back... (keeping in mind I started typing this post at 1:10 and you won't have any trouble believing this) and have to say that Rock Band was intriguing, and it reminded me of this! [link]

... but yeah, that's about it.

Passing the Weekend

So here I am... 5 in the bloody friggen morning.

I know, some of you are asking, "Well Joe, why the hell are you up at 5 in the bloody friggen morning anyway?" If you must know, I have no reason other than I am.

Doing everything else has gotten to be kind of repetitive and boring anyway, so I figure I might as well update this with another of the "latest turbulations of the idiotic and relentless"... something like that anyway.

A-tech Prom 2008: A Black-Tie Affair
I don't regret not going (yes, I repeat... I did not go), but at the same time it just doesn't seem right to not post something about it. Interestingly enough, I found the perfect conundrum for perhaps... 50% of A-tech's Student Body... go take a look! [link]

Key Club Banquet 2008
There's not much to say about this one since it was pretty much the exact same as last years... minus the change in officers and what not. There are a few things that are worth noting however:
-Emily Hong, and let me clarify this by saying this is the Emily Hong, did not wear anything that was in the category of "pants" for the first time that I've known her. Ok, it sounds a little off, but holy crap, everyday she's always wearing a pair of jeans, or black "slacks" (why do they even call them that?), and I swear she has like 30 pairs just sitting around (this however, cannot be confirmed). For her to be wearing something like a dress itself was just simply astounding. Go Em! ^^-b
-While we're on this topic, Em is also perhaps the single most scary person I've ever met when "truly peeved." I never want to venture in that area again for awhile.
-Jaci = zOMGWTF!!!11!!!shift+one!!! in terms of loudness...
-Amazingly, my crap, half-baked narration of what they did during the "break" of making the Fall Rally video made it onto screen... Which is hilarious.

Everything Else
Well other than that, I really have nothing else to add other than the fact that I'm finally going to start sending out my family's announcements... I have so many extras though (I don't even know why... I'm supposed to be Asian, which means a lot of family... another conundrum apparently), so we'll see what happens with that.

In terms of a good gift, I've also decided that I will need a laptop, and in that sense I've decided to scour around everywhere and see what I should decide to get... with major input from the bro, of course.

... other than that, we'll see what happens. ^^-b

Memory of the Past - pt.1

As people know, today is A-tech's big Prom night.

It feels kind of weird, saying "I'm not going to prom" and actually not going to prom, but it's true. It feels weirder since for two years I've said that I've had a prom date already, that I promised.

It's a weird and long story, but it's a story none-the-less.

"Meems"
It seems that all the important people I've ever met have a name pertaining to the use of my nickname that I give them of "Meems." Few people have heard the original person for this, but nobody's heard this one.

Ironically enough, I met this Meems before I even knew her. From what we gathered, it was at some event where I had gotten myself hopelessly lost freshman year. I ran into her (who, incidentally, was lost) and we were just hanging out for the time being... Strangely enough, I never got her name that time, and before the event ended we found our respective groups and just, parted ways.

Skip two years later, where I joined a forum for some general anime discussion and met this person who, when first having some hot debate about whether or not the story was going to arc in a certain direction, I found her to be very... interesting. After talking about politics, the world, we began talking about our lives... and once I began to talk about A-Tech, suddenly we struck up a conversation about how she used to live in Vegas, and then after telling funny stores, we told the exact same story... about getting lost and meeting a random person... and where it turned out that we were each other in that memory. I mean, what were the odds of that happening?

It was weird to be talking to her, now that she was in New Jersey. From then on, we would chat every chance we could, at times for ages. Our longest conversation ended up being almost 48 hours... Over the summer, it was endless conversations through a webcam, talking about the day, about hanging out with friends... everything. And she told me that if she regretted anything that it was not being able to go to prom. So I told her, "You come back to Vegas and I'll take you to prom."

It was a deal... I even promised her I'd apply to Princeton, just as a wild shot, and meet up with her. But I haven't heard from her in awhile; A long while actually. Princeton is a dream, rejected with a vengeance really. I think I'll still head over there to find out what happened to her... go find out where she's disappeared to.

... a reason why I didn't go prom this year, but that's not the only reason. I mean, everybody knows why else I didn't go, but Elaine's an entirely different reason.

When Life Threw a Curveball Seen From a Mile Away

When I actually think about it, I'm pretty sure that I saw this one coming from a mile away.

Ever since that day I asked, the day I decided that "Yeah, looks like prom's a no-go this year too," I knew it was coming. Ironically enough, I knew the answer that she would tell him too, because that's what happens when you factor in the chaos theory after all. And even though she told me what her answer would be if he asked, I knew that it was a lie.

... but I still accepted that blatant lie, because it was her. I still accepted that answer, because I wanted to believe that it would be true. I still accepted that answer, because I wanted it to be true.

Then again, if I wanted for it to be true so badly, why did I prepare myself for the pain that I feel right now? Why do I feel this pain right now, regardless?

... no matter what question I can ask about it, it all leads to the same answer.

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She smiled, even as her expression turned into hopelessness. He wanted to reach out and hold her to him, but she only stepped backwards again, away from him. “You love me.” It was a simple statement, a fact that he couldn’t hide from her, and even then surprise hit him with her words. “I realized that,” her smiled turned bitter, “but I can’t give it back. I can’t give you what you want."

“It doesn't matter,” he countered, his voice growing desperate, and he worked hard to reel it in, to keep control. “All I ask for is a chance.” The desperation in his voice, the confused look she gave him; this is what all his patience and hurt that had built up through time was going to boil down to. Silence took over.

And in enduring the long silence, she finally spoke, "I don't know anymore." She spoke with uncertainty, her voice wavering through the silence. "I don't know if I can give you that chance anymore."

Even now, whether or not she was willing to try still echoes through the silence.
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... the question remains: Will I try for that second chance... ever?